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2012-02-01T01:17:00.006+08:00

2012-01-30T23:34:00.003+08:00

yesterday i watch this video of IU singing this cover and I have to say I really really like her voice!

this is the kind of song i wan to loop all night.

went to watch some of her other videos and it's all so so nice!

like this one:

even the host is mesmerized by her singing!

and she's just 19 this year.

Guess I am really old le.

first time i like a singer who is younger than me.

2012-01-29T23:29:00.002+08:00

I think at this rate of sleepless nights and nightmares that jolt me out in the middle of the night,
Coupled with restless days and no good mood, I might need to see a shrink soon.
This really has to stop.
I don't really know why I had these problems, stress? But I've not been in much school work.
Sure there is, but the peak isn't even noticeable still.
Why oh why.
I thought about the things that kept me awake in the night,
I realized motif them are the bigger decisions that Im making.

I thought about teaching, my job, my internship, my attachment, my bond, my damages, my insurance, my savings, my family, my life.
Then I thought about my frens, my courses, my grades, and so many many many things.
Especially insurance for the past few weeks or so.

Did I mention that I was under quite alot of pressure about this?
Am serious about buying one, one that is fully funded by myself. Its protectionf for them in the future,
Ive planned this since a long time, since 16.
as soon as i am financially capable to finance the premiums, I will pay for insurance.

Because its such a milestone, and an important decision, I want to make sure I get it right.
i thought things were simple,must its really far from simple, little did I know that there is so much to know.
And I've been doing alot,a lot of research in the past week. No joke.
My agent was a nice soul I think, but I felt that there are things that he never disclose completely, I have to probe to get an answer, if I never ask, I would never know
I feel the pressure to buy, but I didn't dare to, cos there were so many things I don't understand,
I was stressed and confused cos nobody, not a single soul around me knows much about insurance
Nobody can answer my questions. at times like those, I really hoped I have a friend or a relative who's in this line, to answer me truthfully and don't mind answering them so that I don't have any pressure and obligation to buy.
But when you are asking nd being anal to a complete stranger, it's a different story. And I met my agents 4 times, each time at least for one hour, and I haven't got my questions answered fully.
you can say I asked for it, but I really believe very soon, we will all be in this dilemma,
You think you can ask your parents? I can be 80 percent sure they don't know the real deal, but I'm glad I know things better now. I don't regret putting myself through this. I ask my aunt who bought alot of insurance, I reviewed her policy and found she's losing money, and best, she's not doing anything bout it, she say she got no time, she is clueless.
It's too complex for a layman to understand. I even took up a mod in ntu about insurance, but dropped it cos it's really an awful timing

Tis is just one of the things, my nightmare is a smorgasbord of too many aspects of my life
Yesterday I woke up tearing, it's too scary, but I can't remember what my nightmare was when the sun is up.

Bottomline, never think its too early to start an insurance, don't think your parents bought for you already, there's so many types out there,
For all you know, you are not protected and not protecting
It's time to ask, and time to be an adult responsibly,

2012-01-29T16:17:00.004+08:00

2012-01-28T01:56:00.004+08:00

Saw this marriage proposal from youtube and i really gotta applaud that man for the courage and all the thought and effort he put in place just to win the hand of his special someone. He really need a lot of guts to do and also to overcome the fear of "what if i dont land on the inflated landing..". But the reaction of his girlfriend is simply priceless- he'd probably think it's all worth it but i guess any normal person would have reacted that way. But it certainly gave his gf a heart-stopping moment.

I guess a marriage proposal really tells alot how much the guy wants the girl to marry him. A good marriage proposal doesnt really have to be extravagant and high profile kind.

It should be one that you know how your girlfriend would like it to be, be it just a simple quiet affair or a romantic one.A bad proposal would be a slipshod and insincere one or to do the right thing at the wrong time and to do the wrong thing at the wrong time (worst).

A good marriage proposal would definitely go a long way and be remembered by many. Especially in a time like today where everyone practically shares their life on twitter/facebook/tumblr etc, if your proposal is caught on video and posted online, it would be widely shared and discussed by many. Like the meme proposal sometime ago which moved me to tears because it was so sincere and touching!

Same goes to a bad marriage proposal. Not only do you risk you girlfriend rejecting you, you will also be judged by others. hahaa

Weixin

2012-01-22T19:18:00.004+08:00

Happy chinese new year everyone!! Hope you are all

Enjoying your reunion dinner with your loved ones now:) lets hope the dragon year will be smooth sailing, blissful and bountiful for us!

Whatever dreams and goals you have for the comig year, go all out for it!

新年快乐，合家幸福

身体健康，心想事成

龙年快乐:D

2012-01-15T21:44:00.003+08:00

I rushed through the episodes of BBJX right from the start so that I could faster finish watching it.

I started it with the intention to escape from the reality of my horrid results as everytime i watch a show, I would immerse myself in it.

I know I need to finish it this week so that from Week 2 of school onwards, I would have settle down and focus on my studies.

But as I am at my second last episode of the show, i start to stray away and find videos and online posts regarding BBJX, reason being, i really cant bear to finish watching the show.

I consider it the second best period drama after Huan zhu ge ge.

I dont like show with too much gxdj (hahah dionna uses this term), which is typical of many period dramas as this is common in the past.

But this show also focuses on many other aspect and gxdj is just a small part of it.

Yes, although gxdj led to many things happening to the main leads, but i felt that it focuses more on 人生的无奈和爱与牺牲。

The plot is also very intricate as it weave history into the story that the author has in mind. The story flows very well and while watching I kept thinking of these words - “爱之深啊。。。”

In this show, the love between the main lead is so intense and sacrificial, to the extent that even they were apart, they still longed for each other and love each other deeply. They were brought together because of love, but separated because of it as well.

just finised watching the drama and i really broke down and cried uncontrollably at episode 34.

Perfect drama with the perfect plot,actors/actresses (even those with less significant roles can really act, the acting skills of the main leads is beyond words. I can even feel their pain when they cry, no joke),perfect companion music (this is so important!). Neither draggy nor too rush, everything done just right. the only thing that i dun like is that this drama actually span 20 yrs of ruo xi, just that sometimes while watching, i dunnoe so many years had actually gone by.So i need to refer to sources online and to read between the lines to know that actually in between scenes many years has passed.

Am having withdrawal syndromes from this show. ;( what a great drama!!

but as of the way i know myself, this craze will soon die with all the work and whatnots but would be revive with reading the novel and hopefully a sequel of any sort, by it movie or drama! just want to see their story and love continues..

2012-01-15T14:28:00.003+08:00

xiao jing teng in singapore!

here's a vid of him singing xin bu liao qing, one of my favourite songs of his.

CHEN YANTONG.

2012-01-10T15:57:00.005+08:00

My all time favorite piano piece!
I set out a list of things to be done today but didn't get them done eventually. Blame the weather, blame my digestive system and of course, blame my laziness :) Idk how people managed to survive the 4hours lecture without feeling sleepy. & horror.. PV, FV, Annuity, Perpetuity are back to haunt me. So now I know Financial Management is just a nicer name for Fundamentals of Finance and Corporate Finance. Luckily the lecturer this time round is so much better than prior ones. I hope I will start to love Finance this time round.

Finally had the chance to watch Already Famous last night after soooooo long! 原来有些东西真的是期望越大，失望就越大。Probably the atmosphere will be better if the cinema is pack with people. At least the laughter doesn't seem so.. But I took away something from this show.

年轻的时候要做什么就做什么，不要想那么多。

如果一个人一生中没做自己喜欢的事，那长寿又有什么用？

& yay, it's 2 weeks more to CNY. I can't wait!

CHEN YANTONG.

2012-01-08T00:29:00.003+08:00

Not good at expressing myself verbally so hey here I am, penning down my thoughts and appreciation for the surprise. Pardon me for my grammar cus you know I'm never good at that. So anyway, here it goes:

It never once occur to me that friends whom I made during different phases of life will come together one day to celebrate my 21st. Honestly speaking, like what WeiXin said, I was a little disappointed the day before. After all, you'll only turn 21st ONCE so naturally I was hoping for something more than just cupcakes. Ha, it's never wrong for wanting something more on your special day righttttt? Wink*

But hey! Tonight was great. It was beyond description in fact. I forgot who said that but ya, my disappointment was brought to high level and then came absolute happiness! Actually the day when Esther text Jing Yu, I was right beside her and I saw the text. So yea, I was expecting the surprise to be somewhat like my 20th, a typical one. But I was greeted with disappointment when everyone started presenting their gifts the day before at Timbre. I thought that may be the surprise had been cancelled cus you people were so convincing with your acting. Still, I was hoping, hoping that something might happen on the day itself eventually. However, disappointment was bought to higher level when we entered Sentosa walking around aimlessly. I truly believed that Mei Shan wanted to take a look at the merchandise and Ying Kai was telling me about the Hard Rock cafe at Melaka so yea. And then the rest of the story you people know..

Looked through all the scrapbook/cards/photos that I've received, I can't thank god/buddha/whoever enough for the wonderful friends I've made. I'm glad we have made it this far. 14, 8, 6, 4, 2. (Years of friendships) Numbers are amazing! I hope I've been a great or otherwise a rather good friend all these while. Sorry if I don't, I promise I will work hard to be a better one from now on.

& ha, it's funny reading through the threads in Facebook. Sorry that I've been rejecting offers to go out. I'm so used to celebrating my actual day with the secondary school clique that I thought it will be good if my 21st can be the same old. After all, it's becoming a tradition. Wink. I'm glad that y'all didn't splurge at the Manhattan Portage in the end cus I think Mitju suits my everyday wear more. Hee. Ohya, the running shoes fits me to a T too. Now that the shoes are in, I'm all ready to train for my 5KM run!

Then the family. My mum spent the entire morning preparing the food. My favorite thick mee sua with soup, red eggs & ngoh hiang and not forgetting spending a bomb on my pretty watch and delicious cake. Then my father and his generosity, staying up and calling to check when I will be home. Then the brother who waited for me till late even though it's his clubbing day. If only I was 15mins earlier! My family are not the typical ones who will greet each other with Happy Birthday, it's too cheesy. But tiny gestures like these warm my heart on this windy night :)

除了谢谢，真的不知道还能说些什么。所以，谢谢大家啦! Thanks for making an impact on my 21st! You know my life would pretty much suck without all of you!

Now that I hit the legal age, it's time to bear responsibilities for your own actions. No more running away just because the road ahead is tough. & yes, this time I'm really going to register for my driving. Never mind if it's going to be another round of failure or that it's going to be an endless road, I think I'm ready to brave through it all. After all, I'm 21 already! Old enough to shoulder them all.

Lastly, Happy 21st to me once again.

2012-01-05T01:12:00.004+08:00

When people live in such sheltered life, when their family, friends and relatives are all but well-educated elites who probably know a great deal of anything under the sun,

then chances are, they have this pre-conceived mindset that everyone is more or less like them.

But no, we all know that people come in all shapes and sizes, rich and poor.

When they naively think you are living as good as them, you have no choice but to play along and pretend you do. Then you feel all sucky about it, and may even start to despise yourself for trying to pretend to be something you are not.

It's a vicious cycle of course, when one lie leads to another, and you are forced time and time again to live up to that non-existent lie to begin with.

And that's how we feel horrible about life, about life at a tender age of 20, sadly.

Why are we not doing as well as others?

Why despite so much effort that I put in, I can never close up that gap?

Why people had it all so easy and I have to try so hard?

Why do I have to work my guts out and some people had their fortune fall from the sky?

Isn't it all too miserable to compare and compare and compare.

But we cannot help it. We live in a dense world where "I am you think what I am"-Cooley

Too bad.

That's why people grow all so judgemental, cos since we are judged all the time, it only makes it fair that we have our share of judging people too.

So we judge judge and judge.

and sadly, I have become one of those. The more you know you are being judged, the more you judge others.

Life.

Where meeting one another is a form of affinity already,

yet, we judge each other, and feel jealous about one another.

People get together, but not happy together.

Sounds ridiculous, but isnt that what we do all the time?

Stop me, I think my rambling can go on and on, like some self indulgent verbal vomit with no substantial content.

Sorry for wasting a few seconds of your life if your eyes already traveled here.

No choice, I dont know where to pour my thoughts except here cos writing with pen and paper isnt all too environmentally friendly.

Wells, happy new year 2012.

This verbal vomit will be continued.

2012-01-02T22:15:00.003+08:00

Happy 2012!

actually sometimes i wonder why is it happy new year/happy birthday etc.

what if u are not happy about the event? so the happy is there so that the unhappy people would feel obligated to be happy.

when i walked to weixin's house for countdown, a thought came to me.

For every step I take, am I actually closer to my future, or am I closer to my end?

Although the end is a subset of the future, but the latter seemed to contain more negativity.

Festive season, but empty feelings.

It feels as if I have taken a dark path, my shadow blended in with the surroundings.

Like I have disappeared from the surface from earth.

Albeit temporarily.

With a heavy heart, I stepped (unwilling) into 2012.

As I looked back, the past seemed to be a blur.

A blur that somehow, caused a whirlwind in my mind.

Sometimes I feel really overwhelmed, sometimes all I wish for is to have a break, sometimes all i wish is not my efforts to be appreciated, but just not to get extra duties and responsibilities to be added to my load.

i really feel like a old woman trapped in a young adult's body.

sometimes i really just want to get high and excited and squeal like a little girl.

but i cant. a lot of things weighing me down in my mind, a lot of problems unsolved.

next friday will be a v v v important day for me, somehow a turning point after these 2 years.

deep down, i am really afraid of disappointment like a faced in september again.

i fear that i might not take in and breakdown in the toilet again.

anw, sharing this song to end the post.

auld lang syne by lea michele! i think she's really an awesome singer!

heard her sing in NYE's movie ystd and went to google her just now.

i always cry without fail when i hear this song cause my kindergarten teacher taught us this song

and we sing it whenever someone is leaving in our class.

so this song has to me has always been a 离别歌.

2011-12-31T20:12:00.004+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

in advance.

Yeah man, I am serious about a few things for the coming year.

and I am so going to make my resolution come true.

I dont want to feel disappointed on the last day of 2012 becos I didnt accomplish certain things that I set out like in 2011.

But that being said, I have no idea what my resolutions were for 2011.

Nevermind, the past shall go.

I am going to make my 2012 resolution nonetheless.

1. I want to speak and write English better.I must not speak Singlish anymore, which I always do. I have responsibilities now.

2. I want to be a BIG SAVER. that means, I want to work harder and save more. No more unnecessary spending.

3. I want my GPA up up and up.

That's not the end. I still have quite a few, but these are the major ones. Friends, please remind me to work towards these goals in the coming 2012.

I want to be a better and greater person.

I wish for the best for all of you too in the new year 2012.

CHEN YANTONG.

2011-12-31T16:12:00.005+08:00

Happy last day of 2011. I'm so glad our countdown is going to happen afterall. Happy kid!

On this last day of 2011, I'm not going to do any reflections because I have done them a few post back. But, I want to say that I'm really happy that we're still keeping in contact and meeting up every now and then. In 2012, I hope we can be closer than in 2011 and probably another short overseas trip? Wink*

& lastly, I hope the unhappy memories in 2011 can stay in 2011.

Hello 2012, I'm ready to embrace you! I hope it's going to be a year full of new experiences. I want to do a 5KM run, I want to have enough courage to do parasailing, I want to learn new stuff, I want to make new friends in school, I don't want to retake any mods & let me pass my driving pleaseeeee~! Okay, that's should be all for now, not a lot to ask for right?

See y'all tonight!

Anyway, sneak peak:

2011-12-22T11:19:00.003+08:00

2011, like any other year, has not been good to me.
But that said, some milestones happen in 2011.

First, in feb, I got my tuition job. It has been 11 months now and still counting.
My first serious and longest attempt in a tuition job.
Which made me realise that I have the ability to juggle work and studies. (or maybe not cos I have sucky grades)

In March, I finally got my driving license.
That's not quite a feat, consider the fact that I passed only on the third time.
The failed second attempt was also in the same year- that fateful Jan.

In July, I went TIP, made me earn quite a sum of money. which i almost spent on buying a DSLR for my 206.
Luckily i didnt, cos the grade turned out horrible in the end. My worst mod in the sem.
I am few steps closer to my savings goal.

In around August, I bought my first health insurance, with my own medisave.
which made me realise that I actually have a medisave that is more than decent at my age.
No more using my mum's money to pay for insurance.

In October, I signed the Teaching bond.
This is such a huge milestone, becos 2 years down the road, you can sort of imagine me as you imagined me in 2 years later from now.

In December, many things happen, thats gona be brought forward and directly influence the coming year.
From all those broadcast experience, I know now that Im not cut out for broadcast, even though I may actually like it.
I am declared as a PR specialised student. OMG. PR. ME.
Am I ever a people person to begin with?

Very little drama this year.As compared to others who probably lead a more fulfilling year, and mine in comparison should be a dull and boring one.

Well, if you feel bored just reading this, imagine my life.

2011-12-20T15:16:00.002+08:00

Feelings that you bottled up deep inside dont fade as time goes by but become more intense over the years.
and that it has always been waiting for a time when it can be poured out completely.
And then you see yourself the same grudgeful soul you are years ago.

2011-12-19T22:29:00.002+08:00

Brrrr so cold!!!

singapore might not have a white christmas, but temperature is getting quite low with the thuderstorm and chilly winds!

freezing in the office and even at home!

wearing the pullover which i wore for winter climate at home now.

ji cold!

meishan

CHEN YANTONG.

2011-12-18T00:27:00.004+08:00

I'm done with school and work for the year. Happy kid. It's time for enjoyment and more enjoyment! So many activities lined up, I wish it's only the start of December. I don't want this year to end so soon! But yet, I can't wait for our countdown. I did Christmas plus CNY shopping today. Really feels good to be in town with Christmas decorations and carols everywhere, minus the bad weather of course! Anyway, everyone should start buying umbrellas that cater to two instead of one. Cus you know, I don't like to bring umbrella. Uncool. HAHAHA!

weixin

2011-12-13T09:13:00.002+08:00

christmas is round the corner. and why-oh-why have i not buy the present for christmas gift exchange!! my exams ended like 2 weeks ago but i lead a mundane life thus far, as always. hmmm lets see i watched shows on my laptop and thats about all ive done so far.

i watched bad teacher its nice! and as usual how i met your mother and family guy series, i finished the seasons of zack and cody. just to sidetracked i used to catch zack and cody on kids central they are so funny! and i always wanted to watch the more recent seasons that showed them all grown up so i did this holiday. i watched this year's grammy and CMA. ive always wanted to continue with my gossip girls but i didnt. i think im more inclined to watch comedies-how i met your mother! zack and cody! they are hilarious and emotional at the same time.

i also watched new year's eve in the cinemas. its a wonderful movie! and starring ashton kutcher how can i miss it. he's so cute i love him from no strings attached. and i downloaded valentines day too cos its a vignette kind of movie like new year's eve, several stories of groups of people who turned out to be related.

okay by now i think im ready to be arrested already i downloaded so many shows is it illegal?

CHEN YANTONG.

2011-12-13T00:21:00.003+08:00

考完了，考完了，这次真的考完了! 因为认真努力过，所以考完的感觉真的很舒服，很轻松。It's just good music with my favorite magazine and a refreshing mask tonight. Stress free, no more waking up in the middle of the sleep in shock. Goodbye to late nights spent mugging. Though late, but it's finally my turn to scream F.R.E.E.D.O.M. Probably the worst period, yet. But hey, I survived it all. Happy kid.

17 days more before 2011 is coming to an end. It's been an eggciting year, probably the best till date. I think I'm a little braver this year considering the fact that I worked alone for months, learnt driving, learnt guitar. I think I'm a little closer to my parents this year. I think I've mature a little this year. I think I'm a little closer to my friends. In short, I think my 20th is a good one. The only regret is probably unable to get my license this year. But hey, my 20th is still an awesome one for I tried something I never try before. And yes, I'm hitting the legal age in one month's time. (winkwink*) Hi 21st year old me, I think I'm ready to embrace you now!

Okay, my kang xi finished loading. Goodbye all and see you all on wedz, hopefully! :)

Happy Birthday Yuanteng! (I hope you managed to see this!)

2011-12-12T15:35:00.002+08:00

Been busy with helping my friends out with a short film for a competition for SYFY Shorts.

SYFY=Sci-fi, obviously meant a film on the sci-fi genre.

It started off as helping a friend out of personal capacity, to do props.

but in the end, somehow i was roped into the production.

Many tiring mornings, many doubts about it.

I put in time which I would otherwise spent in working, reading, catching up dramas or stoning at home.

Was skeptical about it, like how it was in 206.

Still is, we just ended the production stage, tmr will be the editing.

Editing works wonders. It's like putting together pieces and pieces of jigsaw puzzles. Individual pieces that looked ridiculous on its own suddenly makes sense when they come together.

Broadcast. Is such a fun and tiring business to be involved.

I hope it turns out good, I hope for once, I can tell myself I am skeptical for nothing.

That everything is just me being paranoid.

Well, but I'm not the director, so I cant picture the outcome in my head as clear as the directors.

Just cross fingers about tmr.

Anw, I look at films like I never did before now.

When I look at a video, all I think about is frontal shot, cut, reverse shot, Point of view shot, transitions, cut, 180degree camera,lighting, over the shoulder, then dissolve, cut, overlap with transition and etc etc. The actors, i imagine how many times they have to call cut to shoot that exact tear falling. A good-looking actor is so so so important in a good film as much as a good director.

A good-looking one is important cos it makes the director's job so much easier.

He dont have to crack his head to find a visually appealing angle.

It's human nature, if the character is not good looking, then even the best storyline cant cut it.

theres rly a very practical rather than a shallow reason that actors are often good looking.

Enough said, I feel like time is going too fast, today is alr the 12 dec.

I have so many things I haven accomplished,

like start reading classics, watch more classic films, prepare tution materials and etc etc.

But time is not going to slow down for anyone.

We are all ageing day by day,

our physique not as before, and there is only so much one can accomplish in a day.

I'm afraid I have no time for those grand ambitions of mine.

Oh gosh, I sound like some old hag going to die anytime.

But its true, no wonder people say, live like its your last day.

But its really bullshit when you think about it sometimes, otherwise I would have flown to the North to watch my Auroras.

T.T

2011-12-09T11:03:00.001+08:00

2011-11-27T13:00:00.001+08:00

A few years back, I got to know of this blog, http://ourfeistyprincess.blogspot.com/ through the net and papers for this little girl who was diagnosed with cancer.

I followed her brave journey, and read about the love her family has for her.

And then somehow, i stopped following the blog after she went to the states for treatment and I really hoped the best for the little girl.

For a little girl to go through what an adult couldnt even go through, she's so so brave, you will wonder how despite being so young,she could contain so much courage.

A few week back, I suddenly remember about the little girl and went to read the blog, and realised she's back to singapore for treatment.

Then, a few days after, i read the Chinese papers and found out that she had actually passed away...

I was really stunned for a few moments.

Because I actually followed the blog for quite sometime last time, I felt like I have been with her through all these brave little battle..

The love her mum has for her is so intense, it actually make u feel like tearing..

2011-11-25T10:03:00.002+08:00

Yay. I have open net now.

Amazingly fast. but the thing is the subscription is pretty expensive and I wld need to get a new desktop to match up the new speed of the internet.

My old desktop is too old alr.

Im blogging now not becos my exams were over.I have one last one next wed, but its next wed, i can afford to chill a little right?

and i damn suay can, exams and Im down with horrible cough that left me breathless every single minute. i cant concentrate on mugging cos i feel tired and restless all the time.

and 207, the most dreaded core of all WKW people, was relatively easier than expected.

BUT, I CANNOT DO.

Despite mugging like shit weeks before the exams, i couldnt recall alot of things, thats cos I didnt manage to refresh my memory the day before the exam.

I was too tired after Malay paper which ended 7pm and the 207 was on 9am the next day.

So I went to sleep, I wasnt feeling too well already.

I remember how irritated I was when people cough like they are the only one taking the exam in the damn place.

This exam, I became on of those people , unfortunately.

Unfortunate to those who sit within 20 m radius from me.

No good, very dejected after spending so much time mugging.

Remember I said I want to pull up my GPA. I think no hope alr.

Meishan said me and her have very different thinking.

To an extent, I don't agree, we are both pessimistic people.

I had to give her words of optimism in her dad's car, I feel so proud of myself.

Yesterday afternoon after i got back from 207, I kena fever

HENG, it didnt happen the day before 207, otherwise Malay and 207 i needa MC.

Malay no good also.

in fact, none of the mods were good.

I sincerely wish that some miracles wld happen, like how Olevels turned out much better than expected.

but eversince that time, nothing like that happen anymore.

Very sad, but I tell myself not to be so sad, even if i cant graduate in the class of honours i want.

Life goes on. There's a lot waiting for me.

I havent seen the Northern Lights, or the Meteors yet.

CHEN YANTONG.

2011-11-25T00:12:00.004+08:00

My dream vacation destination- Maldives. It's not too much to ask for right?

Studying makes me hungry. Thank god there's nothing much to munch at home though. Can't believe it's just 1.5 weeks more to the papers. Time seriously flies. On the other hand, I can't wait for the papers to end. I want to be in town, I want to spend my days sitting down somewhere chilling or be in the theatres watching a comedy like Already Famous. & New Year's Eve too! I want to hang around in the crowd instead of being BFF with the notes, the past year papers etc. & there's revision class this coming Sunday!

The law lecturer said to look forward to Christmas, at least this make mugging a little more bearable. Another 1.5weeks more to go. 冲了。如果现在不努力，那要等到何时？

2011-11-24T23:53:00.002+08:00

took these photos a few days ago when there was lightning.

i just stood at the window for around half an hour and then, went i review back the photos, saw some these spooked me!

an evil face!!!!!

Ok, that aside, exams has finally ended.

Well, I wanted it to be longer.

There's simply not enough time to study for 4 cores and 1 content heavy elective.

And the fact there my papers are mostly back to back adds on to the stress.

This is by far, the WORST exam i have ever had.

Worse than a levels cause no time to really prepare for it and i am facing tremendous,tremendous GPA stress.

It didnt helped that it was raining so heavily everyday when i was studying for exams!

i remember one particularly afternoon i was just taking a break and eating Lays in the kitchen when i came back to my room to see my notes wet and table 'flooded' because i left my window wide open.

exams.

uni exams.

crazy uni exams.

wo de tian..

uni exams are v v demoralising.

but good things happen though.

like how i walked down the aisle during astro paper and then someone tapped me!!

turned out it was ah kai.

hahaha mang mang ren hai zhong, to see her already not easy, to sit beside (ok beside de behind) is even impossible!!

and somethings happened which is not convenient to post here hahaa shall share with u all when we meet.

but yk and i was talking abt it when my dad drove us home after the paper and i was thinking how come both of our thinkings are so different!

i also saw tan yin after my demoralizing paper at the bus stop.

and today,i actually saw ling ling in the toilet at the exam venue!

haha

and when my dad drove me and my mum for dinner at joo chiat wanton mee there, guess who i saw when my dad was parking?

Miss lim seow hwee my primary sch teacher!! she was waiting for someone (i think) at the roadside.

talk about coincidences.

affinity between people is so amazing.

back to exams.

I cant believe i cant do simple econ concepts questions.

just blank out.

i dunnoe even noe to use P=MC to find perfect competition equilibrium.

The prof just has to twist the questions, i died.

#themomentwhenyouseewhatupractisedalongdidnotcomeoutforexam

really felt like a dagger is stabbing my heart whenever exams end and we discussed the questions and then i realised how to do it.

today paper is the worst.

i am v bad at maths.

actually i am ok de just that i very scared of it and always push it till the last to study.

but this paper i really never touched at all after my quiz before recess break.

and that quiz is can bu ren du.

anw, i felt really at loss this morning when i was studying for it.

i had only a night to study for the paper and it didnt helped that i stayed up the whole night the day before for another paper and i had headache and couldnt really cram in all those maths formula.

and i wanted to take the coward way out.. to MC it.

i even called lihong early in the morning to tell her my decision and she very nice to encourage me to not do it.

but i was really firm on my decision till i went online and check...

and realize if i MC it i would need to retake it next sem.

what's more, this mod has a 50% coursework component so i doubt i will get good proj mates next sem and the ordeal of going thru this mod alone is... unimaginable.

so i went for the paper eventually, feeling death.

throughout the paper, a lot of things went through my mind but NONE ARE FORMULAS :(

couldnt rmber anth at all and that's the first time i cried while doing a paper.

i was thinking i need to squeeze smth out, i cannot leave it totally blank.

i really hate it when i calculate and i get a zero.

which is impossible and it means i am wrong T.T

i dun think i did a correct question at all.

i keep telling myself i can do it de, try to recall try to recall try to recall.

but i cant.

then i look at the seat beside me, which is empty.

thinking how i should have MC, thinking if i shld leave the paper halfway and tell the examiner i am unwell. then i told myself i cannot get a d again. wo bu ke yi wo bu ke yi.

really very stressed and it's maths paper somemore, cant smoke through.

it's the end of my exams, but the reality from being freed from it hasnt hit me yet.

how to feel happy when the expected grades are......

really sacrificed a lot this sem to mug.

but dao tou lai hai shi yi chang kong....

but really thankful for my parents who are so so so supportive.

my poor dad who had to watch me eat lunch in public and cry and try to force feed myself before a paper and pretend to see that i am not crying and keep telling me jokes.

my mum who opened my door at 2am,3am to check if i have fallen asleep from studying (which i did) and off my lights, which made me wake up to on my lights and then continue sleeping. haha

ok, time to sleep le.

forget when is the last time i actually sleep till zi ran xing.

GOOD LUCK TO U ALL WHO ARE HAVING EXAMS/PREPARING FOR IT!

ni men yi ding de!!

our clique wo zui mei you yong le :(

see u all in dec!

p.s: i very competitive de i will not win worst prize this yr.

2011-11-15T16:50:00.002+08:00

This Semester, I started to see value in what I am studying.

For the first time in my uni lfe, I was inspired and felt pretty excited when I was reading certain mods.

I felt that I wasn't so detached anymore.

Now I understand what it feels like when you are doing something for The intrinsic reason.

But the thing is, I feel that I can never be good at something that I like.

Do you have to be good in something you like doing?

If it's not the necessarily that way, wouldnt it be pretty loserish?

I would appreciate this higher education more if there isn't so much restrictions or exams that kills the greater purpose of an education.

I am struggling. I don't think I am cut out for this academic rigour.

Peeps out there who are also struggling, hang in there, and tell yourself, nomatter the outcome, at least, don't feel too sorry for yourself.

esther

2011-11-10T14:13:00.003+08:00

omgg this little boy from singapore ji li hai yi xia! and i just found out he is an actor too.

http://news.omy.sg/Showbiz/E-News/Story/OMYStory201106241530-254893.html

everyone click and watch! esp the first one!

2011-11-08T22:09:00.000+08:00

做人要将心比心。

2011-11-06T04:30:00.002+08:00

When i was in pri 2, i was bullied by this girl call shirley.

she was a big sized girl with short hair and 2 pig tails.

she stole my stuffs, lots of my stationery.. which i didnt realised until a ‘big brother’ of mine called J stood up for me and checked her bag when i realised my gift from my chinese teacher for scoring 50/50 for test was gone.

The person kindly left the wrapper in my bag and took the pencil box.

and when i looked back, i cant rmber why he went to search her bag.

but nevertheless, i found the pencilbox alongside with a bag compartment full of my stationary (or other people’s stationary as well?) then i realised a favourite prized eraser was gone.. the one which i ‘won’ from answering a correct qn at underwater world when i went there with my K2 class. turn out she gave it to this other friend, cassandra, which i took it back with grievances haha cause they were v mean with words and she used it till black black when i bu she de use.

my mom called shirley’s mom and got scolding from her saying that i am the theif, not the daughter. i still remember her mom worked at Prime supermarket.

so anyway, the reason behind these recollections is that yesterday when i board 291 home after my project meeting, i met the ‘big brother’ on the bus. haha he havent changed a bit, still the same as primary school! and i guess he haven shift house cause he board the bus at stop which i knew he stayed around the area.

i dunnoe if he saw me but couldnt recognise me or dunnoe me at all, but i just feel that for someone whom i am have gratitude for, someone who stood up for me when i was at loss, i didnt even have the courage to say hello (hahah but who would do that man, so paiseh). and we are facebook friends.

so the sad thing in life is, social media let us find one another in the virtual world, but how many facebook friends would u say hi to when u meet them in person?

p.s: i really very ji hen hor.. hahah

meishan

2011-11-04T22:37:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO LOTSO'S OWNER!

HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT BIRTHDAY!

BEST WISHES AND ALL THE BEST FOR THE UPCOMING EXAMS!

meishan

2011-11-04T22:25:00.004+08:00

i think one reason why The Oath is so so nice is because the show has a very good song selection.

The theme song is really apt, and weaving Hebe and olivia's song through the show is great as well.

i went to dl the latter 2 songs and it's looping on my song list.

especially like to listen to this song.

It gives the listener a feeling of calm and refreshing tranquility.

p.s: Mike he as the male lead of the MV is a surprising bonus. haha

Also like this line:

朋友是天，朋友是地，有了朋友就能顶天立地。

孩子是风，孩子是雨，有了孩子母亲就能呼风唤雨。

—《甘榜情》

why are channel 8 shows so nice when during the exams period T.T

meishan

2011-11-04T10:25:00.002+08:00

Really tired. I can sense my body failing me every single day.

These days, I dreamt about the future.

My future in the coming years. I cant wait to graduate. But theres another 2 years.

I have yet to cross the half-way.

I went to medical checkup yesterday, everything's fine, except that I put on some weight and became a little taller.

I actually ponned my lecture to go for my checkup trying to beat my tight deadline and my period. Turned out, I had a pop quiz. No choice, I went to the GP upstairs and paid to treat my cough and get an MC. 38 bucks. Over my dead body will I do such a thing it wasnt for the MC.

I did it for my GPA, for a freaking 2 % or so of my grades. If it happened last sem, I really wouldnt bother. But now, it meant something.

Metabolism is going down and eating and spending money has become my source of strength.

Endless things to do, but things that I am not exactly passionate about.

I wonder what I really want in life,

My life is considered pretty smooth, I cruise through my life, I dont have major setbacks, and I can live with what whatever things that are thrown to me. Doesnt matter if thats what I truly wanted.

I think signing the bond is a well-made decision. At least, I dont have to be so aimless anymore,

I know exactly where Im heading at least in the near future, no more thinking that life has no aims on its own.

But I like the feeling that Im not depending on my parents for university fees,it meant that I dont have to struggle to handle tuition and studies and I can concentrate even better on studies.

But it does kills dreams, big dreams.

Good and bad, but i think the Good outweighs the Bad,

that's why I eventually took pasted the stamp and sent the letter.

weixin

2011-11-02T21:16:00.002+08:00

Happy november! cant wait for projects and assignments and finals to be over and enjoy my one month holiday. though im lost with my schoolwork and there are a lot of catching up to be done and studying and deadlines to meet, i quite enjoy school life now. i think its because my modules this semester are generally quite to me liking. my birthday is coming! but the more exciting part aka the presents are already over i got ipod and iphone hehehe. i tried to find 4s cover but those cheap and pretty ones all for iphone 4 only. back to studying zzz. i wanna go bugis street shopping.

2011-11-02T00:28:00.003+08:00

Selina and Diong’s wedding

Before march in..

Selina: 我这阵子不能够用力抱你，但我们距离更近了。

Diong: 我等着牵着你，走上你等了好久、也等了你好久的红毯。

Selina: “终于我要嫁给你了！”

当场让现场宾客感动落泪。

读着报纸的我，也很感动。

至死不渝的爱情

共患难的爱情

经得起历练的爱情。

虽然这样的爱情很高尚、羡煞旁人，但如果可以选择，他们一定会希望是一对拥有平凡爱情的夫妻。

结婚、当个美丽的新娘子是selina从小的心愿。

纵使婚礼洋溢着幸福的气氛、但看着她必须穿这便鞋、坐在椅子上也必将脚垫在矮凳上，不禁让人为她感到心疼。

事与愿违。老天总是爱造化弄人。

我们只是上天棋盘里的一步棋。

但是，最近我发现，如果我能不怨天尤人，胸襟开阔一点，从身旁的小事物得到快乐，我是可以感受到短站的喜悦的。

就连不用等巴士也可以让我开心很久。

成长让我逐渐明白人生，而人生的种种则让我学会如何面对与接受

2011-11-01T23:04:00.000+08:00

watcthed “The Oath” on channel 8 and fell in love with this song, which is used as the background music.

esther

2011-10-31T11:46:00.002+08:00

helloo long time no blog. ytd went to my grandfather's hse and played this new card game called 三国杀 which my bro brought back from china. it's sth like monopoly deal except that it's more complicated and exciting. there's four main characters in this game, the king, the royal servants, the spies and the rebels. objective of the king is to be alive and kill the spies and rebels. objective of the royal servants is to protect the king and kill the spies and rebels. objective of the spies is to kill the rest except the king which he has to kill the last. and lastly objective of the rebels is to kill the king. as there are many different characters in the san guo, they all have different special powers. everyone has to guess who is the royal servant, spies or the rebels. the king will be known at the start of the game. it's abit like the polar bear game. next time teach uall to play once i mastered the game cos im still quite lost too.wahahaha!

tmr will be the start of november. 1 month left to exams! so much to study yet i still cant wait for exams. have been thinking whether to study part time next year..

anw there's a rumor that running man will be coming to singapore sentosa! i dun think uall know but i know yuanteng knows! it's my favourite korean variety show, watch it every week since it started. it's abit like amazing race cos they always have to keep running and abit like hide and seek cos they have to avoid being caught by the catcher. it will be very exciting to see them live in action in Singapore.

back to studying. see uall soon!

happy birthday weixin!

CHEN YANTONG.

2011-10-29T23:53:00.004+08:00

Probably the only kpop artist that I like. There's actually a better video but embedding is disabled. What a pity! & he's the reason why I developed interest on guitar. Hahaha, ikr. & I remembered some time last year when they (CN Blue) came to Singapore and held an autograph session at City Square, I was there! Oh, beautiful memories..

& my laptop is still down. Into the 3rd week and counting. I wonder do the technicians actually tried repairing it everyday or just leave it rotting there. Whatever it is, according to my father, Monday is the judgement day. Wish me luck!

Lastly, I wonder why friday's episode of Forensic Heroes is not up on Funshion yet?

2011-10-26T01:36:00.003+08:00

i heard some loud noises and looked out of my window, and i saw 3 malay/indians (couldnt see properly) throwing dragging some things and then threw them over the main gates of junyuan sec sch.

then i saw them walked past the main gates and tore down a banner outside JYSS and threw it on the floor.

so i think the things i saw them throwing over the main gate are banners on the fence of JYSS which they have removed by force.

They werent discrete while doing that, they keep making the "woo" sound.

Did i just witness crime of vandalising/damaging of school property?!

meishan

2011-10-25T23:55:00.003+08:00

i love taking pics of lightning!

Yeah it's PH tomorrow!!

studying at home but still, the thought of a day off school still makes me feel happy.

I realised in Secondary school, although we had lots of subjects (the content wasn't easy though, lots of memory work and understanding needed), I still had time to go out, watch TV do other stuffs, and yet still do reasonably well. ( i cant remember studying really hard in secondary school, the things i learnt were mostly what i enjoyed so learning process was quite smooth except for a maths and bio)

Then in JC, of course it was a nightmare when i was going through it.

But uni seemed to be more tough than JC even though i only have 3 days week!

i dun even have to do napfa in uni.

but i find myself going through the process of jc, just 10x worst because in uni there arent teachers who will be there to give u consultations and friends like wx who i can call to ask when in doubt.

and the anxiety of not doing well for mid terms which will pull down overall grade,

and playing the psychological factor when deciding if i wan to s/u my astro or not.

and there are only 5 mod, but so much to study i dunnoe where to start!

i learnt from my fren that overseas uni's system is that in a sem, perhaps 1-2 months u will do 2-3 mods, and the month after u will do another 2-3 mods.

i like this system, at least we can be more focused.

I feel like i am a fish in an ocean, either i drowned on my own (note: fish cant drown, but i just wan to emphasize on my dire situation) or eaten up by the bigger fishes who are so brilliant!

yesterday i learnt from my fren that this particular senior is actually a dean lister.

i am quite close to her and i didnt know she did so well but she didnt seemed like.

so many dean lister around me, i feel so sad.

and yet they are the ppl who confide in me that they din do well.

and then there is this fren who said she will get killed for a mod.

guess she scored 3x more for our mid terms, passed it and yet i was the one who failed so jia lat.

i am feeling the anxiety but the thought of exams is just one month away makes me really happy.

i just wanna hurry up and pack my stuffs and go beijing to look for my brother!

uni didnt just teach me knowledge.

it teaches cold hard reality that we will face in the workforce.

that people dont always seemed to be the way they are, and some people will be two-faced to u.

some people may abuse their power and shoot u till u gt a lot of holes and a stomach full of grievances.

I wonder why people are like this.

arent we all cute and innocent when we are young?

what happened that shaped us all to be like this?

greed, envy, jealousy, inferior complex?

if everyone is truthful and sincere to everyone else, wouldnt our world be a whole lot better?

but i guess somehow along the way, some people just love themselves too much and think too highly of themselves, or perhaps it's just that greed and hunger of power that blinded their judgement.

maybe i should have just done psychology.

I guess there are a lot to learn from human behavior and analyzing them.

i guess ever since my dream to be a psychologist gt dashed in secondary school, i never knew what i wanted to do.

I just wan to complete my degree!!

please let me get it with decent grades!

so sad i am in honours so i anyhow also cant get lousy class honours.

haix. rant finish.

back to looking at lightning.

meishan

A MILESTONE

2011-10-25T23:51:00.003+08:00

Oh, Nobody blogged after my post.

It has been one week and nobody updated about their lives

Guess you guys must be really busy.

Anw, I still needed to write down some stuffs here.

to remind myself certain things, to have some written proof to refer to many years down the road.

Officially, I received my Teaching Award.

At first, I was quite upset that I didnt get the top scholarship.

but after that, when I went back to the info package few months ago, I realised that they only say the highest recognition is a TA. nothing more.

why then did my mentors tell me that there is s higher scholarship.

Anw, I finally got it,

but the bottomline was to teach English Lang and English Lit.

I can't see myself teaching English when my English is so bad now,

i talk perfect singlish and cant write well.

cannot lah.

I have 2 days to decide from now.

I think the answer will a negative. Im still not too sure.

2011-10-16T12:33:00.003+08:00

There are really people who are so damn Free-spirited

Sounds like a nice adjective to describe someone, full of courage, aspirations and an exciting life.

PUI. These people are just yet another selfish soul, who cares about nothing else, but THEMSELVES.

They put themselves first than any other thing else, they think about their OWN enjoyment, they think about their PRESENT being, they do not think of consequences, they do not bother about other's plight as a result of their selfish, self-indulgent behavior.

This actor in my filming mod.

He was supposed to turn up last Friday for our last filming.

He was supposed to reach at 3pm, but NS things crops up and he promised he can reach at 8pm.

and he wants to leave at 9pm cos he has to goo BBQ with his gf.

so we said, okay, cos there was NO OTHER WAY for any make up, due to various shitty constraints.

In other words, our grp depended on his GRAND ARRIVAL at 8pm.

We waited, it was alr 830pm, he still hadnt come, everyone became skeptical alr, except me, who stupidly have the faith that he was gg to come.( cos there were situations like this b4 when he nearly pangseh but still come)

I had faith in this 21 yr old being. Having lived for 21 yrs, you shld know the rules of a being human.

Turns out, he didnt come.

No replies, Nothing. He didnt even say he couldnt come afterall.

Apparently, I think Im the only one in the grp who was damn freaking mad.

End up, we have to use out friend's bf, who was kind enuf to cross drag for us.

Damn terrible.

I am not angry that he couldnt come.

I am terribly disgusted by the way this 21 yr old handles things

He has the right to put other things on his priority list despite promising us becos we all know that he is NOT OBLIGATED to help us.

He has the right to attend any thing that is more impt to him.

Actually, that night, for whatever reason he gave that said he couldnt come, we couldnt have forced it either, cos we know he is not obligated to help us.

But he SHOULD AT LEAST INFORMED. so that we can think about other plans to counter this shit.

We could have not wasted time waiting and do constructive things instead.

and yet, this Being just chose to avoid completely.

NO replies, just went MIA.

It says alot. Not that I want to generalise things for this Being.

I think it really shows how he reacted in Life in general.

If there are things that are too hard to solve and too dillematic for this Being, this Being will take the most easy way that requires no effort. Avoidance.

Im actually looking forward to what kind of shitty excuse he is going to give to defend himself if we ever ask him.

We are too nice for that.

Life little stories

2011-10-15T21:14:00.003+08:00

任爸said in an interview, “最美的画面不是少男少女在街头拥吻。最美的画面呢，是老夫老妻携手走向斜阳。”

How true.

Saw two elderly couple today.

An aged man holding on and supporting his wife along the streets.

An aged woman holding on and supporting his husband who has difficulty walking,while engaging him in small talks.

For both old couples, there was no sign of annoyance of their spouses face while supporting their other half.

It was a face of patience and concern.

Every time i see old couples holding hands I would be so so touched,let alone couples who grew old together while being each other pillar of support. Such love is so great it encompasses all disability as well as illness that come with age.

-------------------------------

The setting of this little story is on the mrt platform.

I was sitting down and behind me was 2 people, one- a girl with down's syndorm, and the other, I suppose is her colleague from their conversation.

Auntie: What are you going to do when you papa and mama pass away? Who's going to take care of you?

Girl: I have work!

Auntie: But you never know when people dont want you..

Girl: I will work hard!

She said that sentence with such positivity and cheerfulness it left a great impact on me.

Sometimes in life, we amplify our own problems and make a mountain out of a mole hole.

Yet, there are some people out there who still remain positive despite their own difficult situation that it puts us to shame.

While we grumble about not having enough money to buy our wants, think about those people who doesnt even have money to have a simple meal to cure their hunger pangs.

While we grumble people doesnt have time for us or doesnt put us in their first priority, think about those old people who are left alone by their own children whom they dedicate their whole life to.

While we grumble uni life is so tough that we suffocate under the stress and competition, think about people who cant event further their studies due to financial difficulties or couldnt get into uni of their choice despite putting in so much hard work.

While we grumble how some people are always so fortunate and better off than us, think of your parents who work so hard to provide you with the best they can afford to, slogging their life away just because they love you.

While we grumble how we are so tired and busy that we dont have time for ourselves, reflect and think through why u made the decisions or choices that made u felt that way.

While we grumble how foreigners compete with us such that we pale so much in comparison with them, think about the people and their life they had to put behind in their homeland, throwing caution into wind,holding their fears and uncertainity and settle in a strange environment whom they are unfamiliar with.

“天降大任于斯人也，必先苦其心志，劳其筋骨，饿其体肤。”——《孟子》

meishan

weixin

2011-10-11T18:18:00.001+08:00

I LOST MY IPOD SHUFFLE IN SCHOOL:(:(:(:(

The Wanted - Heart Vacancy

2011-10-10T11:36:00.000+08:00

weixin

2011-10-10T10:52:00.003+08:00

yay i havent blogged for so long i feel ashamed of myself. even yingkai and meishan blogs more than me. so its week 9 of school, one more month to end of uni year2 sem1! time really passes so fast in uni, you dont have time to even sit down and think what has happened over the past few months. im over my hell week aka last week. midterms are over, assignments are done and due. but projects are still not done gasp! i like to listen to the radio when i do work too im hooked to iheartradio.com and there are new york stations available without much speaking its nice with all the songs. i cant wait for school to end then i can catch up with my howimetyourmother season 7 and loads of other series and shows waiting for me to watch. i havent go out for a movie/any other thing for so long:(

saw this online hehe!

Bruno Mars had a Grenade, and Tiao Cruz had Dynamite, so they both threw it at Katy Perry who exploded like a Firework. The bang was so loud the Black Eyed Peas forgot The Time, while Rihanna had memory loss and ran around saying Whats My Name. Eminem looked around saying Im Not Afraid, then Willow Smith began whipping her hair, which caused a Far East Movement. They then crashed their G6 into a club and stopped Party Rocking. Luckily for Nelly it was all Just a Dream.

2011-10-10T00:51:00.002+08:00

Weekends come and go.

Too fast for us to apprehend fully what's happening and a new week arrives.

Always the habit to do work at the 11th hour, somehow i feel more driven to finish my work.

Nevertheless, it's a bad habit.

88.3 Jia FM has the nicest songs at night! no dj to speak some more.

just nice songs all the way! haven heard a song i dislike since 10pm!

meishan

2011-10-07T13:18:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I really dislike myself for being so aimless.
So aimless that I just want to drift through the next few years.
I don;t want to do more, I don't find myself excited about doing more at all.
Times again, I tell myself, you will enjoy life in time to come.
But it's still not coming at all.
Some people tried so hard to get to the place that I'm in,
some people can't even get close to what I have.
and here I am, im grumpy and grouchy.

Steve Jobs said that you really really have to love the things you do.
I've always known that, everybody has been saying that.
But coming from a person whom i admires and had passed away yesterday,
this word doesnt sound like an intellectual call anymore,
it like a wake-up call, i guess.

I still cannot find, i don't think that teaching is what I really want either.
I do not know, but I guess I stand a really low chance in getting that TA now. My heart sank when they asked me for my Uni result slips.
I know from then on, that this meant a full stop.

Life's kind of good for me actually.
Aimless and drifting thru days, eating, sleeping, doing work, going for shoots, discussing shoots, discussing essays and more essays, and then at the end of the week, theres always good food

I went this Dim Sum shop at Little India area, called Swee Choon.
Everybody said its famous and yet yesterday was the first time I heard of it.
I like Thursday nights, after Radio Lecture, at least, it was a nice dinner to call an end to an academic week.
and then welcome another coming week all over again, like how friday signals the arrival of Monday soon.

Life is really short, I put myself in the shoes of Steve Job.
If I were him, I will be really honoured that people learn of my death, through something that I had created.
Isn't it a nice closure to Life?

2011-10-07T01:23:00.001+08:00

hahahah so so cute!

this song is very special to me because altho i have v blur memories of sec 3 camp now, i will always remember how everyone in the cohort sang this song together during camp fire, under the dark sky.

Memories fade, but sometimes, it get tucked aside at a corner of ur heart, waiting for a song to bring back what we thought we have long forgotten.

meishan

2011-10-02T21:28:00.001+08:00

CHEN YANTONG.

2011-10-01T00:00:00.002+08:00

Happy October the first. How's everyone? This blog's been pretty dead for quite some time already!

Every October the first when we were in primary school were probably one of the happiest days then. Teachers being extremely nice with candies, school being generous with files/pencils/whatsoever with 'Happy Children Day' printed on it. Teachers getting together putting up performancse which probably make it to the top 1 on the list of funny performances of the year. Oh those childhood memories. Happy Children Day everyone! I know we're all still young at heart. (Don't care if Children Day being rescheduled to the first Friday of October. During our times, it's first of October and now I'm going to take it that it still it:)

Anyway, the arrival of October also signifies that we're down to only 3 months worth of 2011. Reality hits me when I found out that October is the last month for proper lectures before it's revision for November then come exams. I need more study sessions outside because when I'm at home.. I get distracted easily. (Though the net is no longer interesting these days.) So people, call me whenever you need a study buddy! Anytime anywhere! :)

I finished reading 《等一个人，咖啡》and started on 那些年，我们一起追的女孩. I prefer the former as I can totally pictures the scenes while reading. But well, maybe I will change my mind when I finished the latter. Hahaha, we shall see!

Okay, I just spent 30mins on this post. Time to do some constructive things to embrace the arrival of October. Happy October the first again! :)

2011-09-26T17:28:00.003+08:00

If you understood the Taoist philosophy of yin and yang,
You'd understand that life is a continuous cycle of the good and bad.
Everything on earth has it's own reversal.
The positive may metamorphosize to negative and vice versa.
The black will become the white and the white becomes the black in no time,
If you understood this logic,you will understand nobody will ever be too happy for long,
Neither will anyone be too unhappy for life.
That said, whoever is too happy have to beware lest misfortune strikes,
Whoever is unhappy should keep a lookout for positivity in order to revert from the negative,
The art to life is thus to fine tune and achieve this inner self balance,
Try not to fall to either extreme. Because if you are too happy with your life, you fail to look out for impending danger
If you are too unhappy, you fail to look out for potential opportunity,

When life deals you shit, it's time to hit the books and old wisdom.

This got me thinking

2011-09-25T21:42:00.001+08:00

probably, but probably not.

2011-09-24T00:33:00.013+08:00

我一直觉得自己有这一个很特别的童年。

小时候，别人家的小孩可能每个星期天去补习、一家人出去玩还是什么的。

我和哥哥都回到阿嫲家，因为爸爸妈妈都回到阿嫲家帮忙每个星期一次的问神仪式。

我和哥哥就会躲在阿嫲房间里做功课，然后在问神结束前，在神坛下爬几圈过运。

我、哥哥以及其他小孩都会比赛谁爬最快。

然后，每年一次，都会举办大日子，一两次我也在大日子时庆祝生日。

阿嫲和大人们会筹办，然后在楼下的大草地搭帐篷。

爸爸还会在帐篷的一角装电视、因为我和俊杰爱看电视。没有电视我们会吵着要回家。

在顶峰时期，阿嫲有很多很多的信徒、还举办过跟大日子一起的歌台。我也曾经看过因为歌台超时警察来开发单。

大日子是三天两夜的活动，真的非常非常的热闹。

到后来，阿玛身体越来越不好、再加上政府归那块草地为私人土地、所以我们不能申请准证在那里办大日子了。

后来改在租屋楼下，到了我初院时就改在阿嫲家中庆祝。

信徒越来越少，但来得人都是十分虔诚的、跟随着阿嫲几十年。他们看着我妈妈长大，有我和哥哥，从我小时候看到我现在这么大。他们每次看到我都会惊呼时间过得这么快，我都长这么大了。

我一直都觉得自己有这一个特别的成长过程。

我的阿姨曾经跟我说过，她小时候不懂得怎么跟朋友说自己的妈妈是乩童、更为此感到有一点羞耻。再加上她是英校生，就读acjc,那里都是有钱人的小孩。

可是，我很感谢阿嫲让我有这么特别的童年。让我觉得自己有这么小小的比别人特别一点。

当我感到害怕无助的时后，只要心中默念，我就会感到安心。

两年前我第一次问神之后，我对这一切更感到不可思议，也加重了我的信念。

也许其他人很难懂，但是当我跪在神前，看着不是我阿嫲的阿嫲，那是一种难以言喻的感觉。

祂知道我的烦恼，祂知道我的现况。

今天，我向神请教，希望祂能指点我。但是，神都不能给我一个明确的指点了，我还能抱着任何希望吗？

我很努力，很努力，真的很努力要乐观，要对一切有希望。真的。

可是，经过今天，我又在原地踏步了。

有一句话说，人生如戏，戏如人生。

我说，人生如戏真的是一个很烂的比喻。

人生中没有如果，没有再一次重来的机会。

但是戏就不一样了。

你可以改写剧本、你不满意可以重来直道你满意为止。

如果这是一场噩梦，我想快点醒来，可以吗？

2011-09-23T02:18:00.002+08:00

From the bottom of my heart,

thank you happyfriendslikehongdiku for the thoughts and efforts to plan the surprised.

I really, really didnt expect u all to come to my house.

and thanks for being the first group of friends who celebrates my birthday on my actual day! (apart from my uni clique haha)

really very touched.

thank you.

HAPPY BIG 2 to KEK MEISHAN!!! (:

2011-09-21T14:51:00.002+08:00

吃好好！睡包包！

天天开心！每日没烦恼！

20岁生日快乐！！！

(: (: (:

2011-09-18T14:46:00.001+08:00

I think life is a zero sum game.

There are no winners or losers.

Each to their own destiny.

meishan

2011-09-16T22:55:00.003+08:00

If Life is a gamble,

then it simply meant that you had allowed yourself to make the bet.

At the table,

you curse and swear and lament why you are dealt with shitty, losing cards.

Then you look around the table,

you see the banker who seemed to be gloating as though he knew you had bad cards,

you look at your opponents who cannot wait to declare you a loser once and for all,

you look at the other gamblers not in your game who walks away from their table happily with so many chips on their hand, jealousy and hatred just boils in you.

and you wondered why are you stucked in this stupid game.

The fact is, you allowed yourself to the table in the first place.

Don't blame, if you still have chips, carry on with the game, cos you might actually win.

If you dont have chips, then get out of the place and earn your own chips before coming back.

and if you keep earning and keep losing losing, it doesnt mean youre an ultimate loser, take it as you spent alot to buy Hope.

As long as you don't end up in debt, I guess its fine to keep playing.

I don't believe you can't win even once.

Friendslikeus(:

2011-09-15T20:34:00.000+08:00

GAMBATEH!!!

2011-09-14T15:40:00.002+08:00

Jiayou!! jiayou doin watever you guys are doin! =D

I want to hear Jay Chou live one day.

2011-09-13T00:26:00.004+08:00

I like the live versions. Plug in the ear phone, turn up the volume & imagine you are at the venue right at this moment.. It's pure enjoyment. I missed his concert twice alr cus it was SOLD OUT. I really want to hear him live one day. Then I will be the happiest kid on earth! (:

Yantong.

2011-09-11T23:28:00.002+08:00

Unique family portrait for my annual cake cutting day.
however, there was a tinge of sadness.
and it doesnt help that the heavy rain pouring outside was adding on to the qi liang feeling.

2011-09-04T22:55:00.002+08:00

When you realised that you are doing things that people say, "Been there, done that,"

you say, " Oh, please teach me how you did it.TYVM."

2011-09-03T19:17:00.002+08:00

As we aged, we began to see how different we once were.
The photographs taken over the years are the proof of change.
As I scanned through the tremendous amount of photos which I had taken,
I realised how little I appear in those photographs,
they were mostly photos of others, the buildings, the roads.
Never a fan of shooting, I wouldnt bother to carry a camera ard unless Im on some special expensive trips, that I have to show off to other people.
I felt that the camera,no doubt a really great invention, is pretty overrated at times.
There's always a fair amount of critics of photography. Things like political, ethical concerns to name a few.
Of course, these are serious photography that are under public scrutiny and serious photography is expensive stuff.
Then there are simply the light-hearted photography, for social purposes, as a keepsake to remind ourselves who we once were when we grow old and memory fades.
But I still don't get it. If its for a social purpose, then wouldnt mingling around and spending time with the people around more important than going round to take photos?
Of course, a camera is great, there's no doubt about it, but if it takes away precious time that should be spent on real-time interaction with people, like what most technology did nowadays, then the camera has defeated its purpose.
If one keeps looking through the live view or the viewfinder of the camera, instead of using the human sight to take in the things around them at the moment and fully feeling it, and instead, obsessed with figuring the cumbersome settings of the camera,
So what if he takes the most aesthetically beautiful picture in the world?
and if you are on a vacation, instead of looking around with your eyes, you keep seeing a narrow view from the viewfinder, like what I did in NY, I rmb mostly about myself taking photographs.
Ultimately, the eyes is the best tool to perceive the moment and the mind the best to capture the feelings of the pictures we perceive with our eyes.

Just wanted to write something about photog, Im overwhelmed by the reading and research Ive been doing these days. I need to vent. bloody research.

wo bu shi auntie:(

2011-09-02T01:12:00.004+08:00

Today i left home in the morning for school.

My mom opened the door and saw JYSS boys outside our house.

so she turn around and 'hide' so i was left to face the boy.

And he said:

"AUNTIE, selamat hari raya" and passed me some handicraft and a greeting card.

Wo bu shi auntie...:((((

JYSS has been having these community initiative, for instance NDP they gave us a bookmark that carries a message.

i think it's good though!

anyway, how's things like without my brother at home?

Well, it feels empty, like that's a void somewhere in our hearts.

When he left, he gave me a card containing the message:

“要有野心和信心”

and when he was in transit, ready to depart for beijing, he called us, first his gf (i think) then ah ma then us.

My mum controlled her tears at the airport but upon receiving my brother's call, she broke down.

Because my brother was crying very,very badly over the phone.

I heard it for myself when she passed the phone to me.

Since young, I have never seen my brother cry (except for the time he watched xia yi zhan xin fu).

And he had to manage 40kg of check-in luggage, plus one backpack, one slingbag and one laptop bag all on his own.

Therefore, we were all very worried.

At least now we know he's there safe and sound and settling his stuffs.

And we will be visiting him in beijing at end nov.

tickets booked! left hotel.

but not looking forward to the cold weather!

my mum's been taking computer lessons and she attended web browsing this week so she wanted to try sending emails (actually she knows previously but just wan to practise what she has learnt).

and she sent my brother a super touching email that made me cry when i was reading it on my phone in school.

meishan

CHEN YANTONG.

2011-09-01T19:43:00.002+08:00

Happy September the 1st. Now that August is officially over, I've run out of reasons not to revise my notes anymore! ): Life had been a breeze these days, without having to worry about work. But, guess what? I still dream of work every now and then. Yes, ikr! Anyhow, just a transition phase, I'm pretty sure I'm going to get over it soon (: Still, life like this gets kinda mundane after a while. Some days, I woke up and ask myself 'hey, what am I going to do today?' Sent resumes requesting for events job and was told that my name will be given to the event company but they never called back since..

Am going to register for my exams by the weekends (I hope). Found out that the exemptions and examination fees add up to a whopping 372pounds! Since when did we have to pay for exemptions fee? Miss those days where education was real affordable and there's something called Edusave.

Shopping's becoming a luxury these days. All the pretty clothings, shoes and watches.. I wish I own them, but reality is always cruel. Haha. Anyway, finally started on the book that Mei Shan lent me few weeks back. Each time I read, I feel like I'm in the coffee house, surrounded by the aroma of the coffee. Ah, I miss coffee alr!

Happy September the 1st again. Hope everyone's surviving well and let's keep yeahoo@whatsapp going!

happyfriendslikeus

2011-09-01T11:18:00.001+08:00

“Are we going to be friends forever?” Asked Piglet.
“Even longer,” Pooh answered

2011-08-29T22:12:00.000+08:00

my brother is leaving for bejing soon.

we are going to the airport in 20 minutes time.

I feel so nervous and uneasy.

weixin

2011-08-27T08:58:00.002+08:00

hello everyone. i havent came to blog for very long tsk tsk bo sim. this is because i lead an uninteresting life that has no blog value :(

school's been pretty okay so far, the avalanche of tutorials, projects and assignment that will come soon hasnt come. its going to be a tough sem ahead with some very challenging modules so i hope this sem will end soon without any major glitches.

i miss school life during secondary school/jc period when going to school has recess to look forward to, PE lessons to chill and great company throughout the entire day. lets meet up soon for dinner, details please check out yeahoo @whatsapp.

2011-08-24T21:37:00.004+08:00

信心不时别人给你的。

是你自己找到的。

不是别人说你行你就行。

如果你觉得你不行，别人说你行你还是会觉得自己不行的。

Happiest thing that happened since school started 2 weeks ago is meeting ling ling randomly (again), then shortly by tan yin, and able to sit together with tan yin during astro lecture, and talking to my favoritetest flower during break.

Seeing familiar people whom I am so happy with makes me happy.

They are people whom I can easily pick up from where we left from easily.

Really very happy.

meishan

But a father will always love perfectly ♥

2011-08-22T23:33:00.003+08:00

Been sometime since I last caught an ad this touching.

CHEN YANTONG.

It's been quite some time

2011-08-22T22:40:00.002+08:00

It has been quite some time since I last talk about Life here.
Well, Life is kind of different without staying in hall.
But Im much happier this way, gone are the days that I dreaded Monday to its core because I have to reside in the hills of Singapore.
Gone are the days when I have to lug bags of clothes home every Friday and then wished so hard that the weekends will not pass so quickly,
Gone are the days when I felt so suppressed in the small room of four walls and nothingelse.
That is not to say I enjoy my Life now.
Because theres no more hall, I have to spend time with people in btw breaks, which is actually a good thing, but I do miss moments of solitude like those in hall alone during breaks between lessons last sem.
I go home on average 8pm, my earliest day ends 1pm every monday.
But, Life is still passable, especially wkends with awesome food and maybe a lil of shopping.
Life should be like this most of the time.
I think in this era, we dont have to work so hard anymore, because everyone does, and in the end, you are just another person who works as hard as the others.
What then is the incentive of working hard?
am i making any sense here?

Anw, Im taking the hard mods this sem, many CS mods.
One of them had to make me deal with DSLR and maybe complicated machines.
Im stucked for ideas for my coming assignment, a photo story.
I have to PRESENT a min of 6 photos, and they have to tell a deep,compelling,engaging story.
I feel like Im reverting back to my days in TJ doing art, when im constantly stucked about ideas.
I have forgotten how to do Art after 2 years, Im stucked badly.
How?

These memories are playing like a film without sound

2011-08-19T00:04:00.003+08:00

I miss taking papers in the hall even though mugging for the papers was a torture then!

OLE! I realized we took a lot of pictures with him!

National Day in year 2007. I realized I didn't appear on any pictures. Where did I go?

Graduation Day!

Spent nights sorting out pictures from Mei Shan's hard disk. Oh beautiful memories flooded my mind. Entering Ngee Ann was probably the best decision I ever made in this lifetime.. CO Concert, Pulau Ubin, Adventure Camp, OLE, Founder's Day Performance, Racial Harmony Celebration, National Day, Teacher's Day and finally Graduation Day. Not to forget all the CO practices, and the small & big outings after that. Safra for bowling was our favorite hangout then!

I miss secondary life, I really do. To quote Tan Yin.. "Memories, this is life. Creating memories even now." I hope ten years down the road, I will still look back and smile. Thanks for the beautiful memories everyone! Friendship never ends ♥

CHEN YANTONG.

2011-08-17T23:46:00.001+08:00

"How do you expect kids to listen to their parents when Tarzan lives half naked, Cinderella comes home at midnight, Pinocchio lies all the time, Aladdin is the king of thieves, Batman drives at 200 mph, Sleeping Beauty keeps sleeping and Snow White lives with 7 guys. We shouldn't be surprised when kids misbehave- they get it from their story books. Copy this on your wall if you smiled (:"

saw it on fb! how true! haha

2011-08-17T21:55:00.003+08:00

JJ is packing his room for china and his gf is helping him.

and he kept putting things at corner of my room, thinking i wont know or leave it on my table and coming in to ask me if i want this or that.

we are all counting down to his depature.

I will miss him a lot.

We will all miss him.

Just thinking of this makes me feel like crying and my mum has been crying everytime we talk abt it or when she is changing his bedsheets.

so anyway,

-school starts proper this week.

-It's only wednesday and i am shag ttm.

-my laptop dropped to the floor ystd and suffered a super bad damage. luckily still can use.

-travelling is horrible.

-I have a super cute hk prof and his accent is so cute! There someone in The Noose that imitake hk-ers and i think he has done a super great job cause he sounds like my prof. hahah so everytime my prof speaks i think of the noose character.

meishan

2011-08-14T21:11:00.002+08:00

something to share if u feel like crying. hahahaha

this video is super touching. i've been waiting for this episode cos i read from some fans page that this singer (fyi, he's kyuhyun from sj!) was in a very bad condition when he recorded this but still he performed very well. really like his singing! ji gan dong.

Esther

Those were the days...

2011-08-13T20:24:00.004+08:00

CHEN YANTONG.

2011-08-12T23:22:00.005+08:00

Came here a few days back, wanting to take the 777th post but have got no stories to share. & now, it's the 780th post. Can't believe happyfriendslikeus made it this far but yay, we did it!

Officially pulled myself out of the corporate world for the rest of August which makes me pretty happy. But can't believe I actually felt this tinge of sadness when I left the office this afternoon. After all, it's been five months, five whole freaking months. Never expect myself to made it till August. This job had taught me a lot. I learnt things I never get to learn in school. I'm forced to be independent and that being alone is not a big thing. I'm forced to make calls but thank god most of them are pretty nice. One of the customer service actually remembered talking to me! I met really nice clients whom are patient, and when I'm lost, the client to the rescue. & of course, with nice clients come some not that really nice ones. (That's why can compare ma!) There are some whom you can actually feel their hostility and some whom don't really respect you thinking you're just a small fry. Suck to feel that, but as time goes by, I learnt that it's just part and parcel of life. All you have to do is to get used to it..

11:40pm, I'm really tired today.

Good night friends. I think I will have a really good sleep tonight.

2011-08-12T00:58:00.002+08:00

These days, I've been busy planning my timetable.
Its horrible having to coordinate with people, and me trying to pack 22 aus into 4days and minimize breaks in between.
It's horribly hard.
I need to be more sociable and become less socially awkward when meeting unfamiliar faces.
It's a vital skill.
I do not really feel like working anymore, the money don't hold me anymore.
I stayed on cos I felt bad to the kids.
But this sem is really going to be hard.
I need to pull up my gpa, hopefully get it into a good second upper.second upper can demand higher pay in MOE also,
Speaking of which, I've yet t receive anything from them,
But my mentor seemed positive that I will get the award, but how come there's nothing yet???
This sem, I'm thrown into uncomfortable situations, without hall means I have to constantly find people to be with in school,
So far it's still fine, but I do t know how long it can last,
I'm really tired alr, age is catching up on me
I feel it now. I get tired fast, don't really feel like staying out late, unless there's a car sending me home,
I don't like jostle in the mrt, I dont eat as much as before,
I get more and more worried about things,
My hall friends say I worry a lot, oh dear, even they can tell,
I feel lost somehow, cos I don't know what to do with my life. And I have to specialize.
Is so hard to make decisions, I used to make decisions confidently.
But now..
And also, I just wan a make more money when I'm young, then retire at 45, and lead a tai tai life,
Doesnt matter a single tai tai, really doesn't matter.
I want to travel and do volunteer work, like meaningfully,
Not for the sake of doing it, but really doing it out of own willingness 100 percent,
These days, I ponder,how can make my life more hapz,
How to make myself more valuable and

2011-08-10T23:34:00.003+08:00

I love it when my mum share stories from my childhood with me.

Little things I did, the things that jun jie and i did, and the things we all did together.

I have always wanted to know more, there is a hunger within me, craving for more.

Seeing how mummy always smiles and laugh when she speaks fondly of those memories always brings a smile to my face, though I may not show it often.

Somehow.. my dad is always out of the picture.

Perhaps that the role of the father in traditional asian families.

Silent, yet always there. Supporting us all.

If I am able to accompany my child self during my growing up process, I hope to tell myself that I ought to be stronger, to be more confident, and to be happier.

But yet I know, all those I went through shape me for who I am now, be it good, or bad.

So mummy passed me this little toy that she said I loved it back when I was a child.

Whenever I throw a tantrum or started crying, she would pass it to me and I would be quiet, looking through the viewfinder and start clicking away.

If you look through the viewfinder, you would see images that would change with every click.

She said I would be very attracted to the toy and fascinated by it for a long time.

Perhaps that’s why I love photography so much now, though it’s all for own pleasure. Never will I go professional cause I think it’s too tiring.

An amazing photo is created using a professional camera, usually dslr + photoshop.

But that’s never what I wanted.

Photography to me should be something simple.

To shoot whenever I see a kodak moment.

I cant really describe it but when I see camera worthy stuff, I know I have to shoot it.

Just that my olympus baby is too heavy to carry around sometimes and I dont have my iphonephone.

Somehow, photoshoping a photo never appealed to me.

And I highly doubt that I would buy a dslr in future, too complicated for me.

If I can only shoot in auto mode because I dont know how to do it manual, I rather stick with semi-pro..

Until my brother decides to give or sell me his dslr few years down the road, that is.

haha

I still prefer raw photo, though the image could pale in comparison to a photoshop one.

It’s ok, I like the way it is.

meishan

its ndp!

2011-08-09T19:41:00.002+08:00

helo pple!!

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!!

~ty~

2011-08-07T18:24:00.004+08:00

the movie is finally here.

cant wait!

dunnoe whether it will be shown in singapore but there's always a way to watch it.. hopefully.

haha

meishan

别人说的话，随便听一听，自己做决定

2011-08-07T12:58:00.003+08:00

First week of August zoomed past. Officially down to 3 working days before I bid goodbye to working life (at least for the rest of August). Time to slow down in life before embarking on the search for the next part time job. Always gave myself the excuse that working had been tiring, so I should be spare from revising during the pathetic few free hours I have to myself. Promise that I'm going to start revision after work ends officially. 'Cus I know I won't want to end up retaking the papers. Expensive, I'd rather spend it on my hair.

& speaking of hair, I want to change my hairstyle. Had been in this current hairstyle for a year and counting already. It's time for some changes. Like I always say, the only constant in life is change. First task on the to do list after work end will be to research on hairstyles. Hahaha, vain!

I want to print photos of the Genting trip, Taiwan trip, JB trip and Batam trip and compile them together, forming my travel log ! But I'm very lazy to filter the photos. Shall make that no.2 on my to do list. & ohya, Mei shan, can give me a copy of the JB trip and Batam trip photos? Thank you you!

Organizing the wardrobe is probably the next on the list. Time to keep away the office wear, throw away tees that are out of shape and then make space for more clothes. I like to shop, there's always this sense of satisfaction when I'm home with bags of new stuff.

Okay, that should be all for the time being. In short, I can't wait for work to end! & I have been having low fat high calcium milk with cereal for breakfast these days, in an attempt to make my bones grow stronger. 'Cus I'd still very much want to travel around the world with you you you and you when I'm old! (:

Lastly, HAPPY YEAR 2 EVERYONE!!

& please don't forget it's our PYWTGAE outing no.2 this coming wedz, 10 August. Is everyone going?

Yantong

I MISS TAIWAN SO MUCH:((

2011-08-05T14:44:00.009+08:00

jiahui! hahah my mum ask if u have the photos we took at changi airport before we checked in. the one she took with us de haha

meishan

2011-08-04T17:00:00.002+08:00

I have decided.
I have decided that my life ambition is to retire at age 45, latest.

Ying Kai.

2011-08-02T16:17:00.002+08:00

6 more days to Year 2 Sem 1. People would normally say time flew.

But not me, I've never acknowledged that.

This is a good time to look back. One can only look back if they had time to do so.

I did today and yesterday, when I finally had some spare time on my hands.

But not long, later I have to go for tuition, not much time to spend in reminiscence too.

Lemme just start with the recent hols.

19 May marked the end of sem 2. 20 May I went to work at Goldlion and theres a pay hike. Great news. thats the 5th year Im with Goldlion, minus away the days when Im schooling, first time pay increase.

Until 4 June I stopped working. I flew to a foreign land on 5th June and came back on 18. I didnt enjoy myself there. It wasnt as meaningful as I thought. I did very minimal actually. It wasnt worth the time for the amount of effort I put in. I sure learnt things, but I didnt think I helped the kids much. i didnt think the rest did much either. It really could have been better, alot of things.

then 21-23 June, I went to teaching workshop, the following monday, I went to that school. This job was one of the best I had. I didnt waste my time there. I learnt and somehow, I enjoyed it, despite all th late night lesson preparations. It made an impact on me.

Now, Im very unsure of my directions. Really. I think its excruciating to stay in WKW. I dont see my future with a mass comm degree. I really cant.

and just now, Mr Samuel Ong called. Rmb him? He taught D&T, i went to flip the year book and there he is, in a matter of 4 years, he became the HOD of Art/Craft. and he said he kind of remembered me and asked me if I felt the same. Oh yeah, now I do, when I flipped the pictures.But wells, he's nice, sounds chirpy on the phone and there I was, devastated at the other end. and he told me names, of people I cant really recall, but they were familiar names, very familiar. Then I began to trace back the past. My Ngee Ann days. To be honest, those days were so vague. Too many people come and go in my life that I cannot remember anymore.

School is finally starting. but Im really glad that I didnt waste my hols. I think i learnt more things about life in the hols than in a study semester.

Im someone who doesnt spend much time reminiscing in the past. Its just not me. But today, I did and I tried. I still can't remember who gave the bottle of Saga seeds. Did I pick them up myself? That is unlike me to do that, my hands would get dirty, thats what I would feel

2011-08-01T20:50:00.002+08:00

I have always dislike to cut my hair.

Especially when I dreamt that I went to cut hair and the person cut till super short (!!) - at the ear level that kind.

That is my primary school hair!

But just now after dinner, I went to cut my hair.

I went back to school for meeting with econs soc people (saw hall camp peeps and sigh...).

and i saw a super duper good looking/cute korean guy!!

tian ah wan to yun dao hahah!

i thought he was local cause he look really local.

but his friends started speaking in korean and he spoke to and wa i wan to yun dao.

so i kept tou miao him.

anw, that's not why i cut hair. zhong dian is because of an encounter with an ah peh on train in the late afternoon.

I gave up my seat to an ah peh at paya lebar.

Then he thanked me and sat down.

after that he started asking me what is my religion ( initially i thought he asked if i am local and i kept saying i m local but turned out he asked me my religion)

Then he said he is a Buddhist and i said i am taoist.

thereafter he said he practised buddism, taoism and one more (cant hear clearly).

then he said things like he's a vegetarian for more than 30 years, not married because of his devotion to religion, and said that we have fo yuan.

then he say he know how to see what hairstyle suit what face shape and he said my hair length v long le, dun leave it to grow anymore longer.

he added that best if cut of 1 or 2 inch so i will look younger and more energetic.

after that he say he cut his own hair for dunnoe how long le.

then he say one must always control temper and be kind hearted.

he was explaining to me the concept of mian you xing shen and say people who are angry have fewer hair and hair turns white very easily. etc etc etc.

and he told me he's from english school but that doesnt mean he cant prac Buddhism.

and he was supposed to alight at bedok (he told me) but at that point of time the train was heading to tanah merah alr.

so i told him and he say he chat with me till he missed stop.

and he say we have fo yuan and mentioned that we must have met xxx years ago so we get a chance to meet today and we will meet xxx years ago (buddism teachings i think dunnoe la)

and i say bye bye to him he say we musnt anyhow say zai jian to people cause if a person is about to passed on would u say zai jian...........

and so i went to cut hair after dinner cause an ah peh told me my hair is too long.

These few days i seem to have special encounters with people!

meishan

劉子千 Nian Ni 唸你

2011-08-01T20:38:00.000+08:00

OMG no wonder this song is so infamous!!!!

meishan

CHEN YANTONG.

2011-07-31T20:29:00.002+08:00

Old song but I just fall in love with it recently. Remember Esther used to sing this during k session but I don't really feel anything. Until recently I heard this song while shopping somewhere. It's on repeat now.

These days.. I'm constantly tired, feeling lethargic every single hour and every single thing I do. It's like nothing interest you anymore. On a lighter note, I'm finally down with six working days. Now that there's a date to countdown to.. Life doesn't seems so mundane all of a sudden! Yeahoo.

2011-07-29T00:36:00.003+08:00

The initial plan (actually there wasnt a plan at all! it was such random talk and casual discussions hahaha) was to buy esther a pandan cake and put 20 polky sticks on it.

very joker cake for our laughter pill ji mei.

But! hahaha we couldnt really bring a pandan cake to batam and i forgot all about the polky plan as well.

then the kueh lapis is so expensive so we couldnt use it as cake altho esther likes it.

so at the kueh lapis shop, we (all except yt and esther) planeed that we would buy a cake when we go back to vivo city and go to the rooftop there to celebrate.

[fast foward to our arrival at singapore....]

when we were back i guess no one really know what's the plan cause there is really no plans.

and so we strolled along the waters and i was thinking what we shld do.

(were u all thinking as well or just thinking of where to eat dinner when u all are full from all the junk food??)

so i signalled to the rest when esther wasnt looking.

hahaha and we still didnt know how to go buy a cake without esther knowing.

Then. It all started.

In a comical way.

hahahah

I said I wanted to go toilet to do big business.

but what i had in mind was to go awfully chocolate to buy cake and put in my bag.

(actually my bag is full! luckily wx changed plans)

but when i went into vivo, i saw esther following me.

with weixin as well.

esther wanted to follow me in while i go do big business (esther so nice!! though not into the toilet la) but wx thinks it's weird to let esther follows me alone so she came along.

then yt and ash were deployed to buy cake under the pretext of yt wanting to draw money (when she alr did that when we arrived in singapore!) and ash accompanied her. and yuan teng went to tell esther and wx that yt and ash went to withdraw money.

so far still not confusing right.

and so, i went into the toilet altho i had no intention of using it!

so i had to drag time in the toilet hahaha

and when i came out, i saw yuan teng, esther and wx sitting outside.

and i got to know that yt and ash went to buy cake from yuan teng.

but no lighter!

so i wanted to go buy lighter.

then, i told esther that i want to go giant buy mineral water.

i insisted altho esther made some noise (she's confused) and walk off.

then i saw ash and yt with the cake!

and told them to go up first to food republic while i went to buy lighter.

and i was lost cause i thought there's a vivo mart at level one.

turned out it shifted to basement.

so after walking one big round, i finally bought lighter!!

but that was after some urging and hurrying from kwx who's anxious that my disappearance to buy mineral water (and taking such a long time) would arouse esther's suspicious.

(turned out she is not suspicious at all)

finally, we went up to food republic to meet ash and yt.

the cake was hidden in ash cool bag.

we ate dim sum at xin fu yin cha and when we finised dinner, we were waiting for someone to initiate the next move.

hahah so while i was playing with yt's iphone, wx texted and said time to bring out cake.

so i guess no celebrations at rooftop.

we so flexible.

then i passed the phone to yt saying that yk texted her and wx still say why yk no text us! hahahah

yt showed ash the sms and i told esther i want to go buy mineral water and ask her to accompany me.

(esther, i dont buy mineral water outside de cause i think it's a waste of $$. hahaha and i dun usually need ppl to accompany me to buy stuffs de)

so we went to the drinks stall and after wasting sometime to let them prepare, i told esther that i dont want to buy water le cause very ex.

and when we walked back to our seats, the cake is ready and yeahoo SURPRISE! esther hahaha

esther is not suspicious at all.

the whole building up part sound very joke right.

and esther says it's normal that i want to go do big business (??) hahaha

so yup that's the end.

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY ESTHER ONG WEI TING!!

BEST WISHES!

-meishan

1-day Batam Trip!

2011-07-28T23:35:00.004+08:00

Yeahoo. & so the six of us (look above!) went for a 1-day Batam Trip today! Assembled at 6:15am at the Tampines Mrt platform. Crazy hour but yay, we all made it in time. Reached Harbourfront and we checked in. Gotten our boarding pass and the ji nice V.I.P sticker which has a beautiful crown on top of the 'I'. The ferry ride was quite fast in my opinion. & during the journey, it suddenly dwell on me that we have been through 海，陆，空 this year alr! 海：Batam, 陆: JB and 空: Taiwan! Quote WeiXin: "Why we so hapz one!"

& so our first stop was the Kueh Lapis shop. Esther and I each ordered a small sized Kueh Lapis each and it costs us 17SGD. But I think it taste pretty nice and quite worth the ka-ching. My breakfast tomorrow, yeahoo. Next up was the 土产 shop which sells many different kinds of snacks. There, we tried the samples like nobody business! Ji nice but kinda expensive in my opinion! Then, we went to the biggest temple (I think) in the SouthEastAsia. Can't wait to for Mei Shan to upload the ji cool pictures that we took!!

& then we came to the highlight of the trip.. aka Seafood Lunch!! I like the shells soup, fried sotong, crayfish and lastly, the crab! I think the lunch was very worth it cus I ji long never had a table full of seafood already. Yeahoo!

1st Factory Outlet was the next stop. I bought a Burberry Polo Tee. Wahahaha! Actually I still like the Hard Rock Tee. (Ji sad, if my boss gave me my pay that Mon, I would have bought it already, really!) Then we went over to the Batik outlet. & off we went to the shopping mall where we spent 3 long hours there. Boring mall but the company compensate it & yeahoo, time pass pretty fast. Had Magnum, and in an attempt to finish spending our rupiah.. We went to the book store.

16:15 Indonesia time and we are on our way to the Batam Ferry Centre. & yeahoo, we finally reach Singapore at 19:20 local time! Planned a birthday surprise for Esther and hahaha, laugh @ you.. So many loopholes here and there but you still didn't guess it.

00:00, 29 July 2011.. HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY ESTHER! WELCOME TO THE BIG 2. STAY HAPPY AS ALWAYS AND HOPE YOU TURN A LITTLE SMARTER AFTER TODAY!

With Love,
Yantong!

2011-07-26T19:18:00.003+08:00

I was completely exhausted.

That was an understatement, I was completely drained today.

Actually, i felt drained after work everyday, today is the Champion of all days.

As usual, Tues, i have 3 classes, altogether 5 periods.

The first two was alright, the third was okay as well, but my energy level was going down alr.

Last night, I couldnt sleep, Insomnia, yes.

I kept thinking about things, think and think till i cant slp, when I was about to fall aslp finally, my mum had this violent cough, so violent that I woke up for eternity. She said she choke on herself during her slp.

So today was a really lethargic day. The last two periods were horrible.

The class was pretty noisy,in the middle of the class, two jokers dashed out of the class suddenly. They were chasing each other, almost escalating into a fight.

The others made noise, at that instant, I totally felt like fainting. Literally.

The room was so noisy and stuffy that I felt really giddy.

So I dragged the jokers back, give them a good lecture, for the first time, and made them go back to work. It was Art lesson FYI.

But thankfully, they still managed to complete their work, most, albeit some low-quality pieces.

But the rest were generally okay.

It was really heart-warming that some students acty said that put in much effort for this assignment than any others, some, after much encouragement finally produced decent works cos they said they got no talent.

OMG,and one student said I'm good. Super heartwarming.

Some who had no interest initially showed really good works after encouragement.

Then, I made a bunch of ppl who failed a test to stay back for a retest. Until about 4 plus, then I managed to go home.

I was super drained. super super drained.

I dont know whether Im cut out to be a teacher not. I really don't know.

dream~

2011-07-25T02:15:00.000+08:00

let's dream~

dream high! fly higher!

We are one big family!

2011-07-25T02:06:00.001+08:00

we are one BIG family!

p.s. dun me shock to see me post! hhhaha

~tanyin~

weixin

2011-07-24T17:16:00.003+08:00

today is sunday my last day of work! cant wait for regular lessons to start and life to be on track again. 3 months summer break is gone is a flash, it has been a nice getaway from tutorials lectures projects and presentations but im starting to miss lessons already. bidding for modules is starting soon, after that is batam trip woohoo(: after school starts lets continue with our PYWTGAE! aug 10! and i needa find some other series to follow, ive already finished how i met your mother a couple of weeks back and season 7 is coming out only in sep. cant wait, this series is so awesome! american sitcoms are so funny and addictive. and everybody go listen to my new favourite song, glad you came by the wanted. and listen to adele i know im slow but her singing's great! :D

2011-07-20T21:34:00.000+08:00

Hi happyfriendslikeus!

How are all of you? (: (: (:

2011-07-19T19:09:00.003+08:00

I always feel like Im smacking my own face when I teach.
I tell students that learning is fun and assignments are meaningful.
I tell them to go school with a lively spirit to learn.
But in all my life, I only recalled going to school half-dead
I tell them to have patience in doing art, you cant expect results if you don't
But, the truth is, I was never a patient person in doing anything.
I tell students that the fun of life begins after O/A'lvls and what they should do is just hang in there and work towards your final destination.
But, I still never had much fun in my life at this age.
I tell them the course Im studying is promising and exciting.
But deep inside, I dont know what to do with it.
I tried to make them believe that education is noble and meaningful.
But sometimes, I really despise it.

Sometimes, I kind of enjoyed teaching the students despite my hysterical shouts in class.
Sometimes, I feel alot of the students, so much that it affected me the whole day.
Sometimes, I simply have alot of things to say,
But sometimes, I wonder why Im even like this.
I 'm even quite worried that I dont get my scholarship.
But the thing is, I didnt even have this goal in my mind when I joined this.
I dont know. Maybe I shouldnt expect anything. When you dont expect, you dont get disappointments.
Yes, I will not expect, there is no need to expect anything more other than the pay and the desire to pay off my driving courses (which I alr did long ago)

'cus baby you're a firework.

2011-07-16T23:52:00.003+08:00

(Specially for you, lee wei ting! The video took ages to upload!)

Hey! It's me again! Fireworks are always pretty! A pity I couldn't capture the heart shaped one on time! Magnificent, & I love the impact of the finale! Anyone want catch the fireworks on National Day? (:

& happy first day of work Esther! While you're busy generating income, Wei Ting and I were busy helping to improve the Singapore's economy. HAHAHA. & fate is a funny thing. I bump into Ying kai again today! 茫茫人海中! Yeahoo.

& yay, it's stay home Sunday tomorrow! Time to tidy my notes, practice my guitar and prepare for Monday blues. I can't wait for my hair to dry and retire for the day.

Good night friends!

Yantong.

CHEN YANTONG.

2011-07-16T01:43:00.002+08:00

Sorry, I know I'm very lag! When I first heard this song, I thought it was okay only. But was watching zui hou today. The part where song jie xiu shows xiao ru all the shan zhu drawings and this song kept playing.. Got feel and it's on repeat mode now!

Week two of school and I think I'm still coping well. But, juggling between work and school is really tiring. I'm the type that would want to have time alone for myself. But my weekdays are really packed (even if it's not, I always half dead after work/school) and my Saturdays are being eaten up by make-up lessons every alternate week and guitar. Sundays are mostly spent on catching up with friends. & so, I get really sick of that at some point of time. The feeling was so bad that I really spent significant time yesterday thinking should I quit. And then there's still driving. But, if I quit, I won't be able to shop as and when I like anm and that pretty much suck. Dilemma!

It's a busy peasy day in another few hours time. But I think the teh ping I drank just now makes me real energetic. I hope I don't sleep in class tomorrow.

Goodbye.

yuanteng :)

2011-07-15T20:55:00.002+08:00

The 3 months hols are ending soon, in just 3 weeks time. Im at home so much that my sister says she is used to me being at home. Lol. Im starting to love this relaxed life, doing watever i want, anytime. Cant imagine hw hectic life will become when sku starts. Next sem I have 4 days starting at 8am :(

Anw for last week, my jc fren got a job opening for banquet and i joined her. I worked thr for 5 days. It sure is tiring, pays little and i got scolded for doing extra work :( but still i dun regret it. Oh ya i alsojoined 2 camps so far. One is the famine camp in which we cant eat for 30 hours. One is pharm foc. I think i prefer joining camps as facilitators or gamemasters rather than being participants, cos thr is greater freedom and wont get so dirty. Guess im not really camp type of person . Haha.

Today i went CGH with my grandpa for his monthly appt, with my aunt too. Had a long wait for his turn. And i saw a criminal chained up and escorted by 2 officers walk past. Wat an eye-opener rite. Ok my post is quite random i know. Anw i really enjoyed the jb trip and im looking forward to batam. Yeahoo!